Lillian is supposed to be reporting on my progress for you but clearly, her attention has wandered off again, so I will have to write my own update! I am now in my third week of post-surgery, moving slowly through verrrry slow time. Autumn is here in force and the trees are dropping their leaves. The weather person said this morning that we have an "80% chance of rain for the next seven days." Aaaargh! I snack, I nap, I read (a lot), I embroider, I do my exercises, and I watch TV movies. Today it was "The Good Mother" with Diane Keaton and Liam Neeson, one of the greatly under appreciated works in Diane Keaton's filmography. It's a movie about a single mother who loses custody of her darling little daughter through a simple (and innocent) mistake made by her boyfriend (Neeson). Oh, gosh, it's a gusher, girlfriends! I cried and cried over the last courtroom scene where she is given the verdict. So satisfying.
If you are considering a knee replacement, I can truthfully report that the first two weeks are pretty gnarly. You will ask yourself a dozen times whose stupid idea it was to do this awful thing to yourself.....and then, almost overnight something will change, and your (inner) sun will shine again and you will know that it is going to be OK. That's where I'm at tonight--knowing it's going to be OK, and that is more than enough for now!
Just before I go to sleep at night, I silently ask this question: "Are you there, my Beloved?" Then I feel (notice I do not say "I see") a light in the darkness. "Yes, always, to the end of time." An answer that I sense but cannot hear. Then my longing is fullfilled, and I go to sleep.